Podcast Episode 1: ‘Still I Rise’ Reflections

Looking back on the first episode of the Get LIT Teens Podcast, I never knew I would be able to recount and talk about some of my traumas to a large audience. I am used to keeping my pain and hurt to myself. For the longest time, I thought that no one would understand me, my depression, anxiety, and emotions. I was in a sunken place with no one to share my feelings with, not even a family member. 

Fast-forwarding to where I am now, I was able to seek proper help and speak to therapists. Talking to professionals has helped tremendously, but I still have my shortcomings and struggles. I am currently highly aware that I am not the only Black teen in the world dealing with depression. I also have been shown many times that there are strangers who are willing to listen to me and help me. I am not ashamed of any part of my mental health story. I walk in my truth, whether it's ugly or pretty. It makes me who I am today.

Being able to speak about my life in a safe space created by E.J. Coker means the world to me. She has shown me many times that there is value in what I have to say. Although I now realize the power of my tongue, it took me years to finally accept it.  

I was in a dark place from ages 13-19. I was lonely, sad, and I felt so small. As I gear up to turn 20 years old in a few months, I will no longer sulk, weep, or lament in the dark place that used to be. I will use my story to inspire other teen girls and let them know they are loved. Depression and anxiety will no longer take control of my life. I deserve love and happiness. Every day, I will choose to rise!  

Shian Earlington, Author